Well I leave in less than 11 days and honestly I am not ready. I am so scared right now. I am already missing my children, I have no idea what I am going to do when I get back. I have no idea who I am going to be.
I am having an identity crisis. I am going to finally admit that. But why do I have this identification problem? Is it because I unconsciously feel that once I can identify I am locked in, settled? I am beginning to believe it may be because I don't WANT to identify with any particular thing. I have tried so many things in my life but never really mastered any of them. I like when I have valid reasons for liking or disliking something. I can say its because I have tried it. And to tell you the truth, i dont want to be good at anyone thing. I want to be good at trying. I want to be good at experiencing pain, love, discomfort, happiness, joy, hurt and forgiveness.
Peru is just another one of those things that I want to experience... I mean come on I am going to one of the SEVEN WONDERS OF THE WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How much more amazing can you get!!???