Monday, May 19, 2008

Getting Ready for my departure

Well I leave in less than 11 days and honestly I am not ready. I am so scared right now. I am already missing my children, I have no idea what I am going to do when I get back. I have no idea who I am going to be.
I am having an identity crisis. I am going to finally admit that. But why do I have this identification problem? Is it because I unconsciously feel that once I can identify I am locked in, settled? I am beginning to believe it may be because I don't WANT to identify with any particular thing. I have tried so many things in my life but never really mastered any of them. I like when I have valid reasons for liking or disliking something. I can say its because I have tried it. And to tell you the truth, i dont want to be good at anyone thing. I want to be good at trying. I want to be good at experiencing pain, love, discomfort, happiness, joy, hurt and forgiveness.
Peru is just another one of those things that I want to experience... I mean come on I am going to one of the SEVEN WONDERS OF THE WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! How much more amazing can you get!!???

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

I think YOU are amazing and anyone would be a fool to let you out of their lives. You inspire and love, what more can anyone ask for.
You will be missed but will be loved when you get back!

Anonymous said...

Yay, Domina! Spread joy as you go!
hugs, Kristina :)

Josh said...

You're a far braver soul than I; this is an awesome undertaking, and I am excited for you! To help allay your fears, I highly recommend you check out Life Nomadic, a site about a couple of guys doing roughly what you're doing. Also, check out Four Hour Work Week to see an example of someone else who has achieved freedom from the daily doldrum of work-a-day life. And know that you can call on me if you need help.

Katie said...

¡QuĂ© genial! Estoy muy orgullosa de ti. Cuando regresarás, no vayas a ser la misma persona que eres ahora. Ojala que este cambia tu vida por siempre y por lo bueno. ¡Buena suerte y no te olvides un poco de pisco para mi!

Anonymous said...

i remember having those feelings before i left for china. Once you get settled, the experience is great

James Brill