Friday, May 30, 2008

THIS IS NOT AS EASY AS IT SOUNDS

I am just 3 hours away from starting my travels and I thought I would blog to keep my mind off of the fact that my entire body is shaking. I spent the morning with Marissa and Paul at their school. Marissa was very sad. Her tears came down far before i left. She had her friends around her consoling her and saying things like, "you can borrow my mom for two months" But her and I just held each other. I breathed in deeply getting the last whiff of her amazing smell. I kissed her on her head and her cheeks and just let her rest in my lap. It felt good and sad all at the same time.
I walked Paul to his class and I could tell that he was sad but he seemed more confused as to how he was supposed to handle my absence. I gave him lots of kisses all over and he waved good bye as I exited his classroom. Told both of them that I loved them and then went home to begin my loneliness.
This is supposed to be an amazing trip for me and somehow i am feeling really sad. I really have no idea what is in store for me. But we shall see. I should go now I need to get ready for the biggest adventure of my life!!
Happy Birthday to KATIE and JANE!! Two amazing friends!!!!

2 comments:

T said...

Oh sweet baby... bon voyage!!! You are amazing and brave and beautiful and spiritual and confident and silly... and, well, like a little butterfly flitting from flower to flower... may Peru enjoy the girl who laughs easily... may you come home to your dear friends --- more of who you are... founded deeper in your identity and ... sweetheart, may you share that wealth of knowledge and brilliance with those of us waiting for you in sac.

Katie said...

Ay dios mio! I can't believe you're probably already in Peru! I just watched Indiana Jones again today and I couldn't stop thinking of you (especially when the plane was flying across the map towards Cusco!). It's probably going to feel lonely at first, but that is a part of the growth. It takes a lot of courage to put your little self out there and feel how huge this world is. But your soul will find peace in the Sacred Valley. Cusco means "belly button" in Quechua because the Incas believed it was the center of the world and when you get there you'll understand why. :) I will miss you so much and thank you for the birthday messages! Nos vemos muy pronto! I will check your blog constantly to see what you've been up to. Lots of love from me and Nathan and Deter!